Ok, so rather than thinking right now, I'm writing. Or not really instead. At the same time is more like it. The problem is of course I don't type has fast as I think so it's hard to follow some things... because I'm too slow. Or too fast. There's .. discrepancies? Right.

So... to not make it too obvious I'm writing I'm not watching, but keep my eyes closed. That helps a little. But doesn't solve the speed-problem. Only the other problem I haven't mentioned yet. I'm not sure what to call it. The "oh, I'm writing"-problem. Being preoccupied by the fact that one is writing, that it isn't perfect and seeing all those stupid letters in the way. Letters are for building words, but they doesn't really help. They're the needed tool, not the real thing. So when writing with eyes closed, the letters doesn't interfere... you just think words and words are what's comes out. Rather like talking or thinking.

So anyway. There's actually more problems. I know it sounded like if there were just two, but the problems really just keeps stacking up. It's kind of weird isn't it? Well, so the problem is that when you really suddenly come to think about something, you can't write it. Because you're probably walking around, or lying in the bed, or standing in the shower. Or just sitting there. And actually get around to write it disrupts the thoughts, and trying to rewrite exactly what you thought, that doesn't really work. So what you do is.. nothing. You just think, and amuse yourself, and give it the thought "oh this would have been so great were it written down"... but of course it isn't written down, and never likely will be. At least not like it were really thought.

Another good thing about not watching is that other distractions are also left out. No chat windows in the background can be seen. No cheesburgerhungry cats. No weird shadows on the floor. Nothing to affect your actual thoughts other than the thoughts themself, and possible sounds and so. In fact I hear sounds now. There's music playing, which I have like always, so it's kind of just the normal background. Doesn't really affect my thoughts (that I know about). Then there's of course the sound of typing, which isn't really so nice. It's a little bit distracting, but it's better than.. say neighbors. They makes sound sometimes. That's one of the good points with music, it keeps the level of sound the neighbors need to make higher, because they need to rise above the music.

Ok, so I suddenly got a bit of a problem following my thoughts. There comes spaces where I don't know what to write... or where I wonder what word to use to describe things and stuff, that's very disruptive really. The fact that I has a blazing headache is somehow not in the way, though. Kind of weird. You wonder why that is. Maybe even the pain keeps me focused...

So, anyway, I'm not quite sure what the point of all this is. I just opened notepad, closed my eyes, and started writing. Or thinking, that's what I really tried. And I guess it worked kind of ok. Yeah, well, I'm going to catch some sleep now.

Oh, and another thing. Eyes closed is good when it hurts to look at things (because of light.. yeah, kind of related to the headache.. got the flu or something?)